Sunday, September 19, 2010

My life...My way....

I listen to me...and me alone. I don’t know how bad it is. Ok I admit that I’m stubborn. I don’t listen to many. I argue. I fight. Not that I don’t respect them. It’s just that it feels better when things get done [or may be not!]in my way. It’s always been like that. From relationships to my future. I make my own decisions. So many of those have been flaws. I know. But I don’t regret. I never did. May be it would have been better if I had listened to those around me. I don’t know. It’s just not going right with me. Neither does it feel right when I have to argue with my dear ones. I go out of my mind when I start arguing but later get upset, not for what I said but for what they felt about it. [sigh]
Last week went half the way happy…n half the way sad. After the long wait, I’m about to join a professional course. I’m so excited. College of veterinary and animal sciences, thrissur. 5 n a half years away, I’m gonna be a veterinarian…… i'm gonna be a doctor[ wow…sounds good! Hehe…at least to me]. I have never been this excited since…umm… may be…since my 10th boards [hihi]. To add on to the happy part, Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee….I got my driving license…!!!
But my excitement faded at some faces. The faces where I expected the same excitement as mine are now turning away from me. Or am I knowingly turning away from them? I don’t know. But I’m hurt. Having to explain myself to the ones whom I thought are the only ones who know me is even more hurting. Till now I thought they had the same viewpoint as mine. They just made me realize it’s not. I just don’t know how to answer them. I have the guts to talk back and argue with anyone else who try to pick on me unnecessarily. But now that I’m going on my own… I think I better be silent.
And now, I just decided to be a veterinarian. How does it sound? Anything wrong? I mean, I don’t get it... because for “many”….it’s like…
Doctor -“wow”.
Dentist -“woow…better than MBBS…sounds a lot of money!”
Veterinarian -“uhh…u could have got BDs…Why vet??...ayurvedha is better…anywise, hehe…it’s your future... You can do whatever u want…what are going to specialize on…donkey or monkey…hehe… no offence…I was just joking”.
All I ever wanted to be was a doctor though I never actually had a perfect ambition of what I should specialize on. But it was the only field I was interested in…the only reason which made me cancel my allotment to the best engineering college in kerala [even though I loved math!] MBBS of course was my first try. I couldn’t make it. And I haven’t given up yet. But as for now, I needn’t go behind the now happening custom of going for BDS if not for MBBS. BDS of course is good. Anything is good when you are happy doing it. I think vet wouldn’t be a bad choice for me. I mean, I love pets!!!!!!!! [Though I’m not allowed to have any… my mom hates em :(]. If I have the good mind to look after humans…why not the other animals…I find them way more innocent.
Putting all this drama apart, I’m still excited. Day after tomorrow, I’m going to see my new college. New place. New faces. New coat!!!!!! WOW!!!!!


zephyr said...

Hey Reshma, I am glad that you are honest about 'listening to me'. Most of the young people do just that and refuse to listen to anything or anyone else, but are not as honest as you!

As long the people who matter (your immediate family) is happy with your choice, why should you even bother about others? And please don't lose your cool answering them back. it is not worth it. And all the best in your new college and studies!

And oh, thanks for promoting my post. Hope you read it and not just 'viewed' it!! :)

thoughtful delights :-) said...


This blog reminds Me,the Saying "Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life" ....Never Mind what other's speak or think of You....Its Your Wish and Its Your Life....Keep Going Dear....Be Dr Reshma Soon...Cheerzzzz..:-)

Thoughtful Delights :-)

sivaranjini said...

who said veterinary science is bad??!! its just as good as any other course.. don't worry and have fun with ur new coat

RESHMA said...

thx both of u!!
:) :)

RESHMA said...

thanku zephyr!! :) :)
yeah...being openly honest is better than answering many...:/
n...ur post is way more worthy than to be left just 'viewed'..gr8 work... :)

Unknown!!! said...

Helo.. doctor..first time here..
nice to see your excitement. .I liked this point in ur post "Anything is good when you are happy doing it.".. very true..whatever it is..if u r not happy with it then it is useless

RESHMA said...


thx a lot for reading!!!

keep reading! :) :)

Mr.Anu said...

doctor Anuveeeeeeeeeeeeee kollam..kalakki... !!! :)

keep writing :P

RESHMA said...

@anu: hihi thx da

V.S.Sanakan said...

Reshma, First of all Congrats. It was a long awaiting process for you because of our Govt vs Management issue, Hope so. Any how, I dnt feel Veterinary is a bad stream. I hope you will excel as you write in your blog.May God bless you with all prosperity.and find time to scribe something here as i feel relaxed when going through some of your posts.
Take care. Sanakan

RESHMA said...

thx a lot bro...

yeah sure...i will keep my blog updating..gud to know u like my posts..

keep reading...n keep writing.. tc..:)

Nandan Narula said...

Hello Dr. Reshma. Its good to see a frank blogger speaking her heart out. My best wishes are with you. just enjoy whatever u do n the world will be beneath ur feet. Then one day, those same people will feel proud of u.
All the best. . n keep blogging

RESHMA said...

thanku Nandan :) :)

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